As I reflect on over 68 years of ministry, I can't help but wonder at how I may have pleased the Lord. I don't mean to say that I have. I just wonder what he thinks about these years? What value, if any, would he place on them?

I guess I can't know that for certain, until my time to stand before him comes. But if my life ended tomorrow, I can say without qualification that I have been highly honored for the immense privilege God has given me to serve him -- for each event and for each moment, however well I may have done that. From my earthbound perspective, you could say that it's been more than an exciting and gratifying ride.

The excitement of which I speak is something extraordinary. Jesus knew it. He would have had to know it. What do you suppose Jesus felt like when he gave a dead little girl back her life, or caused an old man to see again, or having thousands come to hear him teach? Well, in case you are wondering, I am not Jesus. I have done none of these things.

But I think I have experienced the same emotions he must have felt when he did. Sometimes I reflect about it all.

Sometimes I wonder what God thinks.

I wonder how I would deal with me if I were Him? To be honest, I might think, "Paul, you are pretty full of yourself, aren't you?" I hope he won't think that. None of this is about me. It is about Him and his ability to take a materially, spiritually, and intellectually impoverished young man and use him to touch others with His love.

Shortly after being born into God's family, the following verse from Psalm 40:2 seemed to picture exactly what had happened to me.

He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings.

It is difficult not to be absorbed with the wonderful things in my life. Apart from Jesus, there is no greater blessing and joy in my life than my beautiful wife, Bonnie. She lights up the room wherever she happens to be. More than anything, or anyone, she lights up my life with her smile, her support and her love. Things like my wife, my kids and grandkids in addition to those things mentioned above; I know I don't deserve his blessings. And measured against the wrongheaded things I do, what good I may have contributed by comparison, seems pathetically small.

For however the Lord evaluates one's life, the experience that gives me the greatest pleasure is seeing God do wonderful things in the lives of his people. There is nothing that lights the fuse of my vitality more than this. Bringing life gives me life. When that happens, it resides in memory forever. Nothing can take it away.

My prayer is that somewhere on this website, you will find something that brings his richness to your heart and fortifies the quality of your life.

Blessings,

Paul Morris

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